I sometimes wonder if I’m too much of a dreamer. Always hoping for the best and believeing that all people are good deep down. Even though I’ve been working retail for close to 3 years now and dealing with some pretty nasty people, there’s still good people out there. I see them, and the smile at me. they are that glimmer of hope, that somewhere good people do exist still. Some people are too caught up on all the bad they see around them, some on their personal burdens, to see these people. I sometimes wonder if its only me that sees them or maybe its just my imagination that these happy people exist. Either way, be real or fantasy, I hope I never wake up.,
A girl I know
So, over the past week or so I’ve started to realize how much I like this one girl I’ve been talking to lately. She’s so fun and sweet, I love talking to her everyday and she makes me smile and feel things I haven’t felt in a long time. But, idk how she feels about me….she is a he but despite that I love HER none the less. She’s so amazing, this girl I know. I just want to hug her every time she’s feeling depressed or down, I want to make her feel like she matters even if she’s stuck in the body she has now. She makes me feel like I matter, like my life matters to someone besides myself. We’ve only know each other for a few weeks but as each day passes, I realize how much she makes me smile again and I want her to smile too. I want her to laugh and have fun, to dream and to believe in those dreams. But right now, she’s trapped. Without hopes and dreams, there’s only death. My life would be that much darker without her laughter and my heart would beat that much softer without her smiles. So I’ve come to the conclusion that everyday I’ll make her smile and laugh, until she does believe she’s worth it, until she smiles and laughs on her own and realizes what an amazing person she really is.
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Cuz, I’m just feeling wayy too damn good bout you and me……somethings gunna go wrong.
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Came across some old writings i’ve been working on, on and off. Still can’t find a title…..
‘It was on days like these, I wondered if he ever thought of me as much as I thought of him. He haunts my mind, always lurking in the background. Pushing his image to the back of my head, I walked into the bedroom and flopped on the bed, it’s always nice here. The sun shining in through the window, which was covered in various Sun catchers and Crystals. They cast such pretty colors over my plain white conforter. As I laid there, I let my mind wonder back to him, I just didn’t understand him. I didn’t understand why He was always on my mind nore did I understand why his face was always in my head. Those Blue eyes and that smile of his, always made me feel happy. Something I bearly could feel half the time without pictureing him. I closed my eyes as the sun slowly moved across the window almost blinding me. I could feel the warmth on my face, on my body. I imangined a guys’ arms around me and wondered how it felt. Safe, for sure and warm I would think. Slowly I drifted, inbetween dream and reality, and finaly settled into a combination of both. I awoke to the sound of my cell phone going off in my pocket. The sun had set and it was about eleven in the evening. I felt around for my phone and found it in my back pocket. I fumbled with the buttons and finally answered it. when I herd his voice on the other side my heart nearly jumped and I was suddenly awake. He always called me regardless of the time. I loved it, hearing his soft voice on the other side of the phone every single night, gave me something to look foward to each and every day. Even though I knew he would never be mine, it sure didn’t stop my heart and mind from hopeing.
It never really mattered to me what we talked about, just the fact that he called ment the world to me. It gave me hope that there are people out there who care and that I was not alone. But lately he’s become distant with me. He doesn’t call like he used to and only texts me once in a while, It worries me.’
Ideas on where I could take this anyone? A title could be even better though…..
thats it for tonight though, comments much liked!~ ttyl tumblr…
